Yasmin ain't a bitch[:

Tattoo your name across my heart

2009-10-31T07:58:00.000-07:00

Currently 11pm .
Didn't go work again , was sick . ]:
Its mother fucking cold today .
Slept almost whole day .
No mood for anything .
Untill Raymond , Marshal came to talk to me[:
Thanks , Haha[:

Stayed at home whole day .
Eat , then vomit .
After vomiting , will just lie on the floor =X
Then brother will help me up .
After vomiting and lying on floor ,
will go rest .
Rest , then wake up eat medi and eat meals again , LOL

Then at around 8plus , going to nine .
Woke korkor up . i slept the next bed to him .
Then i jitao used my leg ,
stretchhhhhhhhhhhh all the way to his bed and kick him =X
then after he wake up , i started to try my best , to get out of bed .
I stand up i fell down =X LOLLOLS .
Then i stand up , lean against the wall and walk to kitchen .
Bathed and everything . Then watch tv , then now here blogging [:

My voice totally changed . More rough le sia , LOL !
Maciam guy's voice -.- LOLLOLS[:
Alright . Shall not talk so much cock now .
GOODBYE [:

I will never trust you again , I promise . Cause i hate you ...
you made me cry for you , all the tears that i've shed for you .
You won't even care i guess , thats it . Goodbye ...

I can be your melody

2009-10-30T05:02:00.000-07:00

Its currently 8.03pm .
Didn't go work today .
At 5 plus went out with Serin , my bitchh [:
Went to her house downstair .
Then saw Heridadi , Wadi's brother .
and got another little girl
Super funny i tell you .
I reached there , i saw that little girl running towards Serin .
Then that little girl told her that she wants her number ,
as the brother told her to get .
Then Serin gave .
Then walked to my house downstair there .
Wtf , super loads of Dunearnites i tell you =X !
Saw Ben's friend . Wei Ting .
Then after that took 985 , off we went to lot one . Haa .

While on the bus , this two particular fucking malay guys .
They kicked Serin's leg .
Then don't know say what fuck shit behind us .
Its not good things . -.-
Alright , reached lot one , shopped .
Like usual , we gone WILD , started talking bout condoms
and everything ? Hahahahaah , =XX
Is i start first , Sorry Serin if i am too over -.-
Keep saying buy bras all these . LOLLLOLS =X
And untill like 7 like that , went out of lot one and bus-ed to my house there .
Then on the bus got this particular mother fucking banglah ,
kept staring at me . And my tits -.-"
Then i jitao stare back , while my bitch sleeping like pig siaa . -.-
Then reaching soon , at Cdans there le i wake her up .
And went my house downstair the provision shop .
Serin bought cup noodle .
I saw xue Ting and Siew Teng .
Lollols , talked awhile .
They were like saying bout Angelina dying hair , then step lian all these .

Lol , i don't care luhh .
Its not even my business now . -.-
Like i care siaa , ? -.-
Then the went off , me and Serin went 413 there sit .
she ate noodles , while i drink water .
Cos no appetite .
then she eat finish , we went home .
Reached home and here blogging . [:
Going eat and bathe soon . Haha .
That's all for today .
GOODBYE[:

If you don't wish me to bother you anymore , i'll fuck off .
And i'll never be back .

I'm sorry , that i can't be the one

2009-10-30T00:37:00.000-07:00

Feeling so fucking useless right now .
Boy , sorry for times when you need a person there for you ,
and im not the one . I am seriously sorry .
Sorry for not loving you so much .
Sorry for times when i say those hurting words to you .
Terribly sorry , i just wanna tell you that i really love you .

I will never give up on you ,
not ever . I will not .
Cause i love you , i really does ..
I can't let you go .
Honestly speaking , this whole 4 months ,
you are on my mind every day , every hour every min every sec ..
I seriously love you ...

Sorry , that i can't be the one who is there to consoling you and everything .
Sorry ...
Just wanna tell you iloveyou , before everything's too late ..
All the tears that i've shed , its all for you ..
I love you .

I seriously am regretting , someone , save me please .
Give me a hand . And pull me out of this fucking world , fucking trap .
I just don't wish to going around , asking people for sex and everything .
I WANNA STOP . This ain't what i want .
Yes i admit , i want HIS attention ...
Cause i love him .
Sorry for Wei qiang . That i can't be your Sex Partner anymore .

Sorry , i just wanna stop doing all these . I wanna stop .
I ain't happy at all .
I am NOT ...
The reason why i am doing all these is because i need attention .
Nobody cares for me , nobody ..
Everyone's hurting me .
Everyone's leaving me .
Everone hates me .
Nobody can show me what's love .
Nobody can give me happiness ...
Whenever i need someone ,
seriously i got no one to turn to .
I need a shoulder , to cry on .
Everynight i am silently crying alone in the darkness .
No one knows , how tired am i .
No one .

I just wanna start a new life ,
with a new me . I don't wanna go around , having sex with anyone , anymore .
I've finally wake up .
From my long dream .
Really wanna thank my second brother ,
Wei Siong .
Kor , thanks , for always being there for me ...
Though at times i am fucking rude to you ,
but you still treat me so good , thanks ...
I know you're facing a lot of problems now .
you have more stress than me .
But you still won't let it affect you .
Always putting on a fake smile , i know .
Kor i know you . you ain't happy at all .
Not at all ...
I know you feel very useless and hopeless .
After that accident . I know .
But kor , don't worry kay ?
You still have me , mummy , papa and korkor .
always behind you suporting you ...
Dont ever feel useless , cause you're not .
In fact you should be happy cause there are people who
are more jialat than you . seriously .

You're not useless at all .
I understand that its because you see mummy
like this , then you'll feel yourself super useless .
Its alright , kor . I also feel like this too .
I am becoming to the bad , and not the good .
Its realy hurting too seeing mummy crying
everynight , seeing how stressful is her life .
I will try my best too .
for not creating so much trouble , and will try to study hard .
Kor iloveyou .

Your Yasmin says " I never thought that the one i love the most , would be the one that hurt me the most . "

Everygirl , but why not me ?

2009-10-29T10:10:00.000-07:00

Alright . Its currently 1.15am now .
Kinda tired and no mood .
Went for work as usual .
In the afternoon ,
Fanzhouming my ex best friend .
I treat him just like my brother .
But he chose to leave me .
He visited me . He spot checked my wrist .
He saw the scars , he thought i slashed again .
I said no .

then at around 4 plus .
He went lan , then went back in my house .
And i prepared bathe all these .
While kor train all his dumb bells and the dont know what Bar .
Zzzz , he buy all those gym de things like few hundred bucks .
Then went out of house at 5 plus with kor .
Took bus 947 and when at interchange there ,
saw a girl who walk also cannot walk properly .
Kor wanted to go forward and ask her whether if she is okay .
Cause she is fucking chio i tell you =X
Seriously , nice figure . Best to fuck .
JUST KIDDING [:
But at last we didn't uhhh .

So went for work .
reach there , kor ate fried rice . While i work .
Then as no people , plus my mum not there .
So he on the thai song fucking loud .
like nobody business , haha .
work work work untill like 11 plus , Bernard , Jun da , Guo liang , and two more
Bernard's Friend .
Then they ate , while Guo Liang disturb me .
Bastard siaa . He sat beside me , he placed his arms around me .
He started calling me " Honey , tonight want go where ? My house ? "
Then i jitao stand up laugh , and my bro take the chair want throw at him .
But they all were joking luhh , [:

Then at around 12 plus , do everything , keep everything .
Ready to go home .
Bernard suddenly ask me where my bf . I was like i single for months le .
then he laugh . chatted with him awhile .
Then he , and Jun da they all go out le [:
My bro went with them too .
Hmmm , then me and my mom cabbed home lor .
Cried while on the cab , going back home .
For no reason . Just suddenly miss the past me .
And my past life .
Everything's changing , im left with nothing .
No one , everything everyone's gone .
Reached four head .
At blue the stone chair near basketball court there ,
one fucking big group of kor friend were there .
But they can't recognise me AGAIN .
Then they started shouting " Xiao jie , need me send you home ? "
I was like " o.o "
Then take lift and went up to my house .

Reached home , then bathed and on comp .
Then mummy gave me pay for today .
Woots , so fast . Got 50 bucks now .
But still not enough , i want MOREMOREMORE[:
Alright . Thats all for today [:
Quite LONGGG , haha [:
Kays . Maybe will be sleeping early tonight as im fucking tired .
GOODBYE[:

Who ? You or Him ?

You'll be my one guy , and i'll be your one girl .

2009-10-28T08:52:00.000-07:00

HEYY YO ~
Woke up at around 8 plus today .
Prepared everything , and went out of house ~
Went to settle things with Yuqian , and her friends .
Talked cocks , and at around 2plus .
Cabbed to YCK , meet him .
around 4 plus i went off ,
For work . Kor didn't go work .
Zzzzzzzz , so cabbed back four head .
Then when taking cab saw His brother . LOLLOLs[:
Funny SIAAA , he looked at me .
I look at him too , HAHA .
I thought who siaa keep staring , LOLLOLS[:
Then cabbed back four head .
Called Angie once i reached .
She came down from our block .
Then slack awhile , asked Yongboon come down too .
Slack and around 5plus went back home .
prepared , and 6plus OFF I GO .
At work there , kinda sian and tired .
SUPER PISSED OFF WITH SOMEONE .
ZZZZZ , then i jitao tell my mom i going home .
Took my pay and BYEBYE .
Gerald , aka the Tall Carrot .
He texted me . Say he wan shesheee , HAHA !
Then he ask can go up my house and pee anot . LOLLOLS
Then told him i not at home , but cabbing home .
Then reached four head , he at bball court with his 朋友 .
Called him , ask him go lift there .
Then went up to my house
He go toilet water the plants . LOL . No lah , water the toilet bowl .
Then weimin kor de friend , Yingren Wang also at toilet .
Carrot wait lor .
Realise that my house like kopitiam siio . Haha .
Next time people want come my house shesheee or pootpoot mus $0.10 liaao .
haha , hmmmmmmm .
Then after they two peeeeee-ing , they went off and byebye .
Then weisiong kor suddenly asked weimin kor .
He was like " ehhh kor , what if one day . You sleeping halfway .
you saw my bed shaking , then got girl moaning . Will you walk out of the room automatically ? "
Then i " LOL-ED " hahahaha .
Then i also asked weisiong kor " Ehh kor , If one day you midnight come back ,
see our house outside got a shoe , that you bo see before , and you go in the room
you saw the bed shaking , a guy moaning , and you hear me moaning ,
will you say continue ? =D "
Then he asked me fuck the wall , LOLLOLs[:
HAAAIX HAIX HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIX
Its 12.05am nowww]:
BORED SIA ! ]]]]]:
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaix , korkor go have fun again -.-"
Dont know sleeping early today anot , LOLLLOLLLLLLLLLLLLS
See how behh[:
GOODNIGHT , GOODBYE [:

Cos you're the one , iloveyou ..

I just wanna tell you , i still love you

2009-10-27T10:34:00.000-07:00

Its 1.48am now]:
And i am BORED . Haha .
Not sure whether sleeping early or what .
Cos tmr got to wake up early , and go settle some things .
Then after settling , will cab to YCK[:
Meeting him at 3pm[:
Alright . Don't wanna crap so much here .
Goodbye[:

I still can't let you go ..

Everything that i do , reminds me of you

2009-10-27T01:01:00.000-07:00

Right now its 3.15pm[:
Just woke up from my nap .
Going out soon i guess[:
Hope i will be bringing a smile back home ,
and not a fcktard fake smile[:

Got my pay from my mum today .
Yawnnn , got to wait for my bro's wrist to recover .
Cause if he don't go to work , i don't wanna go too .
ITS Freaking bored without HIM .
Cause at least when he is there ,
there is someone i can talk cock with .

Yesterday Bo gey came to my house .
He brought kor out to chiong .
Think they went to Neverland again {?}
Not really that sure ( haha ) .
Then when kor go out ,
thats it . I have my " freedom " .
LOLLOLS[: i played comp all the way till midnight .

Then slept quite early last night .
Cos head superrrrr giddy .
Around 2 plus like this .
Then woke up at around 12 plus .
Online , then went back to sleep again . ( LOL ! )
hmmm , going out soon .
Shall not talk so much .
GOODBYE

Finally , i am letting go of you .
I think this is the best for me ,
and you . You should just
go and find your happiness .
Cos i ain't the right one for you .
Boy , goodbye . [:

I love you

2009-10-26T09:43:00.000-07:00

Title :

Prik Thai - Tong Luem Hai Dai Phu Chai Khon Ni

Title : Dai Yin Mai

Truth in your lies , doubt in your faith

2009-10-26T09:04:00.000-07:00

Its 12.08a.m. now [:
Haha , and Ben !
生日快乐 !!! hahas .
Officially 18 le [:
Also old le =X Like ah pehh .
Lao ti go . LOLLOLS[:
Hmmm , wish you good luck in everything [:
Hmmm , didn't went out today .
Stayed at home .
But seriously like I cannot stay at home {!}
Zzz , really thinking too much le .
Didn't really have the mood to do anything today .
Angelina , she msn-ed me ...
And she was my close-st sister ...
Haix . My heart seriously break into pieces when the day ,
she left me , together with fan zhou ming .
And they choose to be with Dayana .
I cried a lot , but she's no longer gonna be my friend anymore ..
I just hope i won't loose anymore people .
seriously . I am tired .
I wish to go back to the past ..
and start everything over again .
And that i will really treasure everything .
But its too late for me to say all these now .
i know , its all too late .
Alright . Shall not talk so much cock now .
Its 12.24am now .
Got no mood for anything ..
zzz , tonight will be sleeping late again i guess .
GOODBYE , GOODNIGHT .

I just want you to know ,
that actually i had never given up on you ..
Not ever . Why ?
Because iloveyou .
I really do . I still love you ..
But i guess its all too late for me to say all these now .
It had already become craps to you .
I really love you , can't you see ?
I seriously does ...
If only i wasn't so dumb to tell you goodbye ,
if only i love you more from the start .
If only i understand how much you love me
If only time could just simply turn back ...
If only .. I could have the chance to tell you I Love you ..
If only i treat you better .
Boy , i seriously love you ..

Your mother just want to love him .

The moment you said goodbye

2009-10-25T23:14:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, its 2.14pm now .
Woke up at around 12 plus this morning .
Wake up , cooked maggie and makan .
After makan-ing , vomited again _l_
Then now here blogging [:
Not sure whether going work anymore anot luhh . LOL .
hmmm , cos of my bro .
His wrist ... Hmmm , never minds .
Siong , stay STRONG[: I love you .
Well . not feeling really well todayy]:
Haaaixx .
Kor went for NS checkup again today .
kinda tired , cos yesterday slept at around 4plus , almost to 5 .
Haaaix , everyday same routine . -.-
NO LIFE , LOL =X
Shall see how bah .
See got mood to go out anot lor =D
Alrights .
Thats all for today [:
GOODBYE

Maybe its just me .

If only you care

2009-10-25T05:02:00.001-07:00

One is undeniably good to me .
How could i just drop him ?
The other left me once before ,
But my love has never faded for him .
I'm not a princess from anywhere .
I'll have to choose one side .
This love triangle must end ..

I can't seem to accept the reality

2009-10-25T04:08:00.000-07:00

hmm , New URL .
Realised my the previous one ,
www.yas-miin-euure-mother.blogspot.com
Is kinda OLDDDD ~ haha [:

So yeah , re-link ehh [: